doing work
i was just doing some work. i can already feel my mind doing the sort of wiggling around uncomfortably, tossing and turning type of thing it loves to do when i approach something new. it likes to convince me i cant and never will understand something. it doesnt outright say that, but it says its too confusing and it throws the towel in a lot before i tell it to pick it back up and get back into it. i kind of cringe myself out sometimes. this is all me doing it, im doing that i think things are so intimidating sometimes. gah. im struggling to be smart.